datintales

As I am going through one of the world's most awkward non-breakup breakups, I figure I would start a journal to chronicle what this entails, its outcome, and why people go through silly things like this.

The history behind this situation is complicated and pretty boring, so I shall spare you the details. But, because of this situation and how I see it, I feel that I am an independent person, independent of how he feels. While we are supposed to be working towards the possibility of the idea of us possibly getting back together, I am not taking myself off the market. While he might not be actively seeking anyone else or even remotely interested in the idea of anyone else or being with anyone else, I am free to do as I please. He know I want to be with him. He knows I like him...

What he doesn't know is that I'm not getting any younger and I'm not going to wait around for something that might not even pan out. So, I have now put myself out there. I am single and definitely ready to mingle. I'm happy to go on dates and smooch other guys. You never know, kissing a few guys might remind me that it is actually him I want to be with. Or, he might lose interest completely, and my time won't have been completely wasted. I will have allowed myself to start the ball rolling and allow myself to be datable and sought after.

Currently, I am on eHarmony doing a 3 month plan, since apparently they have some fairly nifty matching system. I only just signed up within the past 24 hours, and I already have a bite. He's not my most ideal type, but sometimes you have to think outside the box to figure out what you really want. When I get paid, I am considering signing up for Match.com, as I've used the site before and met a few people form it (all unsuccessful eventually, but entertaining nonetheless). It's a much more free-spirited, independent site and allows you to find people on your own.

Here's to new endeavors and playing the field and not waiting around for a guy who rushed into something, then ended up scaring himself.